Heavy and Light

My heart is heavy with grief, but lightened by the knowledge that this is not the end. My grandmother was a courageous woman of God, and she led an incredible and gracious life to the very end. I miss her terribly.

"Those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death." Isaiah 57:2

And so she did. And now she is not burdened by a sick body, by a mind that fades, but is greeting our Savior and King with great joy.


There are so many more things to say, but my heart is weary. I love you all.

down, down, down

I remember a time when my life was shrouded in secrecy. When my thoughts and actions were hidden from everyone and every moment of life was a lie.

It is painful to think that I am one misstep from that. One bad decision, one moment of succumbing to temptation. And it is getting harder everyday to say no.

Over and over again

I thought the thing with surrender was that I would just do it, give it all over, and be done with it.

I'm finding out that it's not like that at all. I have to surrender it everyday. And sometimes I fear that it's not getting any easier.