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One day I'll make a real post. I promise.

But I couldn't possibly say what I feel any better than Anne Lamott already has: "I just love the guy. I love Jesus - it's that simple."

I am overwhelmed by love these days. I can't contain it. I cry because I am so overwhelmed. It is beautiful.

I am thankful for all of you.

Everything Changes

I received a word from God today. This doesn't happen often, in fact, it has never happened so directly as it did today. I think the friend I sat with at church probably thought me insane because there was nothing in the message that should have prompted me to burst into tears as I did. It is time, He said.

I knew immediately what this meant - how my life from that second on will be different and I must do the things I have been avoiding doing. I cried for the majority of the sermon, half-praying, half-meditating on the words I was given - it is time.

Here, in its entirety, is the message I received today.

Jessica Jean - dearest daughter, beautiful girl - it is time. The season for growing yourself is past - time now for giving more of yourself than you knew you had. Time now to plan and prepare for the life I called you to. Time to stop thinking and dreaming, and time to start doing. Stop ignoring the challenges I am calling you into and accept them. You have been so faithful to give me the big things, but it is time. Surrender all. Take up your cross.

Friends, I'm not sure what to do with this message, but I know: everything must change, and everything has changed.

Pray for me, please, my friends, as I wrestle with what these words mean. I am praying for you, too.

Love.